Back At Square One

We grow and get smarter and wiser in life. But when we have our low points in our lives we forget or may be blown back to square one. Losing a job can be a very stressful thing and in this economy its hard. But what they don't tell you is not only do you knot have a steady paycheck coming in. That you will start to doubt your self worth and the self esteem will bottom out. I have been there like everyone else when you don't have a pot to piss in. Broken but still alive going through the motions of everyday life. Usually when we are in this state we tend to forget everything we have learned so far. Its like being a baby and learning to walk and talk again from baby steps. Many things can cause us to get back to square one. A death in the family or a bad breakup can do it as well. After the fact we start to rip and put together everything to find some relief. The only thing that can cure a broken heart or grief is time. We need time to heal and get back to where we were before all of the drama started. What can help when these things are people that actually care or what to see you get over it. It can be a stranger that will lift you up and make you feel like yourself again. Or it could be a close friend that is showing they love you and are there for you. Like I said before true friends will be there for you when you are in the darkest hour. They will help you find your way back to the light of life. I was always taught not to laugh at someone that is having a bad time. Its bad karma to kick someone when they are down. Its not something I would do and I don't wish any harm on anyone no matter if they were an asshole to me or not. I was talking to my friends about the bad breakup I had. I told them then despite the way I was treated I still loved him. My friend asked me how can you still love him? I told him I can't shut off the way I feel about someone. Even if they were dead wrong in the way they handled things. I could lie and say that I don't have any love for that person. But then I would be lying and I'm not good at lying. That's why I am direct with all things in my life. I wish I didn't love that person but sadly I do. I don't feel any love for that person but I know I do love him. Its part of the circle of life you love someone that doesn't love you back. I was sent back to square one on that one but now I'm back to where I was before all of that bullshit and drama happened. I have to say I'm glad to be away from all of that drama and deceit. We all have our low points in life that's the way the cookie crumbles. All we can do is jump to action and get to where we are going.