Somewhere Over The Rainbow

What what a nice spring day be without a rainbow in it. Well some of the world wants gays to go away and we are the rainbow. Without us women would be broke down and messy. Fashion would stop dead in its tracks. There is always some queen somewhere whipping up a frock or something for a woman. I'm not saying that women and straight men can't design. I'm just simply saying they are in black and white. Gays are in full HD color busting out of the damn TV. We do everything better than they do and that's why they need our help. They don't know how do do make up like Christopher can do it. I don't know anyone by that name it just popped into my head. As I write I will use whatever comes to my mind. I got it like that you dig? Sure you do that's why your here reading what I'm saying. I have always written since I was a small child. I have a way with words I can craft a vivid story. Is it because I'm standing in the rainbow? perhaps it is but don't get me wrong. Women would be lost without someone do whip up that hair at the salon. Or beat that face within an inch of her life. I may be standing in the rainbow but when I open my mouth a purse or disco ball doesn't fall out.. Just an southern accent is what you will hear. Who would design their houses and decorate them? We are in every field and busting out with pride. So why are we still second class citizens? because people are afraid of what's not boring like them. We are not good enough to give blood or serve our country. We can make you look good but we are worth much more than that. We are a rainbow and we are so many and so different from each other as well. You can be a nelly queen with limp wrist or a macho man in plaid and boots. A lipstick lesbian or a bull dagga ready to eat every secretion off of that pussy. We are more than just our sexuality. At first I would always say why is this person coming out? Why is that person coming out? Because they need to do it. It should make it easier on the young gay kids that are still not sure or out yet. Our families tend to forget that we are still the same people that grew up with them. When we were growing up we didn't have anyone to look up to. We only had Donahue or Oprah with gay teens and topics. That's all we got back then today is a different day. We have so many positive role models for these young kids to see. Some of these parents are so ignorant and don't want their kids exposed to gays and  other things. Well the more you shelter your child the more fucked up they will be. The world is turning and it will continue to turn. They will grow up and be exposed to all kinds of people. I would think that they would want their kids to be educated. Not just in school but in the ways of life and not taught to hate. The rainbow is very powerful its millions of people strong. It touches every part of this planet we live on. It will always be here until the sun isn't beaming down on the Earth. I'm still shocked how people treat us and how they are in shock. When they hear someone is gay.. Get over it I'm not fucking you so you don't have to worry about it. If you have something to say to someone. Be nice about it not ignorant we can respond to questions. Its funny to me that straight men can fuck women in the ass but we can't be gay. Not to mention the straight men that like their asses played with. Somewhere over the Rainbow...

That warm and fuzzy feeling..

So as we all go on with our lives we are in and out of relationships. A good friend of mine just ended a five year relationship. I have been there and its not easy to end something. Another friend of mine is Speedy Gonzales. He moves at the speed of light. There is nothing wrong with having the warm fuzzy feeling. Its what you do with that feeling that matters. This friend just ended a relationship with his alcoholic boyfriend. He is a fish that loves that fire water. Well he isn't even out of that house yet. He met a new guy I will call Will and he seems to be sweet. I'm not a hater at all don't get me wrong. I was just trying to tell this friend that he should take things slowly. He may be feeling brand new but that is no reason to play the fool. I want what is best for all my friends and they know this. I'm an old soul and I have a lot of experience and know things. Well he has been dating this guy for two weeks. They have been together for most of that time which is sweet but. A candle burned at both ends will burn out fast. They are about to move in together and I think its a big mistake. He just got out of one relationship and BAM. He is already in a new one and he is feeling good. Still don't play the fool out right. I think you should get to know someone before you take that leap. Living with someone is a serious thing. Both of you are in each others space. One may be a slob or something worse you never know.  I think a good amount of time before you move in with someone is a year. After that its safe to say that you two are in love. Willing to take that next step into domestic bliss. Go for it and enjoy each other to the fullest. There is nothing like feeling that new feeling. Someone new is into you and wanting to know all about you. I have to say I hope things do work out for Speedy. He is like a young school girl that just got dick for the first time.  I have to say that another friend of mine is moving in the right direction and its a good thing. Him and his man have been together almost a year. They are going to wait for the year mark and then go from there. You have to think with your mind and not your heart only. Or you could end up regretting what you end up doing. In this day and age its hard to meet someone of substance. Most are out for hit and runs and they don't hide it. Men like to tell you what they think you want to hear. Just tell me the truth and I will be fine. The bottom line living with someone changes the dynamics of things. Some for good and some for well you know. It could take years for you to feel that feeling again. You can't run from it or hide from it. It will still be there if you want to deal with it or not.

Sperm Donors

Well with Father's day that was this past Sunday. I have to say that most father's don't deserve this holiday for them. What ever happened to Son's day or Daughter's day for that matter? Most of us grew up in a single parent household and we don't know what a father really is. Most father's are just sperm donors and nothing else at all. We may see them a few times in our lives. If we are lucky we don't get to see them at all. We just need to listen to our mother's tell us about how bad he was. A dog or player or whatever the case may be. Some go looking for their father's when they are grown. They usually become a victim of whatever their father can get from them. Wanting love but not really getting that at all. Just drama and empty promises made to us as kids or adults. Some do grow up with both parents and its no different really. He may be in the same house as you grew up in. But do you really have a real relationship with him? Can you actually have a conversation with him? I have friend's who's father's are just sperm donors. They don't talk to him open and honest. They bow down to him and the things that he likes. He may be an alcoholic or just a workaholic. Our mother's are the ones that suffer until they can break free of the drama. Some don't ever break free they have to look at his face and smell him every damn day. No matter what he may have done to her she stays. It could be because he talked her into a position of submission. She stays at home and he makes all the money. 1940's bullshit if you ask me. Just making a baby doesn't make you a father. Taking care of that baby and providing for that baby. That's a real father and he doesn't need any awards to say that its true. Just the smile on his child's face is enough for him. New laws need to be passed for these men that father this babies. Then they call the girl a whore and they end up on Maury. Yes you are the father its 99.9 percent. Still they won't take care of the child. Your relationship may end with the woman. But your child is still there and needs both parents if possible. Of course a woman can raise her kids on her own. But it would be better if the father was around to help out. Woman need to be smarter about who they sleep with because they could end up pregnant. Gay men we can fuck and walk away but not you women. Once you have a child you are stuck with his ass for the rest of both your lives.

Stupid Whores.com

So I know I'm not the only one that has noticed this trend. Its been going on for many years and its straight up and down stupid. I'm talking about the gay men that like to have sex out in public places. In parks and bathrooms and empty buildings to name a few. Its funny to look at the ads people place and how stupid they are. They will say hey I'm in the public library bathroom and I will be there at this time. Its so stupid that I can't believe its even real. Apparently these nasty gutter whores don't get that if they get caught. They will have to register as a sex offender and can't live so many feet from where kids play and live. You saw what happened to George Michael when he was hunting for dick. People won't stop you and ask what you did. They will think you molested some poor kid. Your life will be ruined and for what? A piece of gristle? No dick or ass is worth your life being over for. But I guess that mystery dick in the stall is worth it for them. As we move closer to this weekend which is Pride. We will have many more gutter whores entering the city ready to lay it low and spread it wide. The clinics will be busy for the next few weeks. As HIV rates go up and puss filled asses and dripping dicks will be very high in numbers. I'm still shocked at how many people are barebacking and not giving a fuck. They say that life's a party and they can just take a pill for it. They should talk to someone that is already poz and they will tell them. If they could go back they would. So many young boys who are not even finished with puberty that are now Hiv poz. Its so sad but then again its all this bareback porn that so many seem to like. Its one thing to watch porn. Hell we all like porn don't we? But when you start acting like your ass is the main star in a new series of Stank. That's where the problem starts. I can't count how many times I have seen reckless behavior. I just put it out in the Universe that these young boys smarten up. Like my grandmother says those girls may be smart in school. But are they boy smart? Once they get that warmth between their legs they go crazy. Tell it grandmother tell it like it is. Sadly San Francisco is a town that is geared towards being single. Its very cliquish and disconnected in general. People would rather be online than to be out meeting people. I can honestly say I love San Francisco really I do. I just don't care too much for the people. Like everywhere else in a big city sex is easy to get. So a new breed of whores has stepped up and some are real stank. Some have somewhat of some morals and standards. Things have warped with the whores they want the things you get in a relationship. In a hookup they want to cuddle and kiss only. Then you go back to your house and they go back to theirs. I don't understand it at all. I just observe it and now I'm talking about it here. If you aren't a whore you know someone that is one. 

Straight Acting

So I see this term used a lot by gay men. First off we are not straight and to compare yourself to a straight man is so wrong. First off straight men's manhood lies in their ass. I guess once they are locked up and fucked that's the last part of them that is man. Its taken and I guess they are less of a man at that point. I have a friend that was married to this man now divorced that had issues with his ass. He would not wash his own ass meaning he would not touch it. He would just let the water hit it. He thought that if he touched his own ass it would make him gay. Straight men are not as clean hygiene wise as gay men are. Until the Metrosexual came along now some straight men are taking better care of themselves. Still they are straight and we are all men after all but with big differences. Pigs, fetishes, and gay men with bad hygiene are excluded from what I'm about to say. Most gay men have very good hygiene and keep their asses clean I do mean clean. We also trim our nether regions as well and under arm hair. We keep our toe nails clipped and feet taken care of. We keep our hands clean and finger nails clean as well. Straight men love to have long dirty nails. They also have under arm hair so long you could braid and bead it. They don't moisturize and they usually have a single eyebrow. They wear way too much cologne and you can smell them after they have left the room. They love cheap cologne or the something that was on sale. You can count on skid marks being in their underwear or boxers. Like I said before straight men are scared of touching their own asses. If someone says the word gay most of them take off running but.. They will play gay with their friends its very popular in college. Its called hazing and most of the poor guys trying get into a Fraternity.These poor guys have to eat some guys ass or suck his dick or even get fucked. Unless you like talking about Sports, Pussy or Cars something is wrong with you. They lose interest in anything that is out of their element. They are always horny and talking about getting some pussy. They don't get sex like gay men do and they are not happy about this at all. They also think that every gay man wants them. Which is total bullshit and we all know it. Most straight men are selfish and won't want to eat pussy at all. Only those who really like it will do it. But on the same note they want their dicks sucked. I feel sorry for the women because of the bad hygiene. You have to smell shit and ass on his balls when you go down on him. Straight men also have no style and don' know how to dress right. Unless helped by a woman or gay man they are clueless. Of course they are one sided when it comes to homosexuality. They love the lesbian shit which they would not be a part of anyway. They would get turned away from the lesbians. They are very scared of gay men and you can tell when you see them. Unless they actually know someone that is gay then they are cool. Some straight men are comfortable with their own sexuality and gay men don't bother them at all. They are very rare and hard to find but they do exist. The ones that are this way are the ones you can actually be friends with. Nothing is worse than a confused man chasing after you. Or as some gay men like to chase after straight men only. Its a sad fetish and they normally end up in bed alone with a tube of lube and their right hand. I say this for most gay men except those who have this fetish. We don't want you even if you were spread eagle and had a shot gun to our heads. There is nothing a straight man can do for me other than be my friend. So when I see these gay men saying they are straight acting it scares the shit out of me. You can say masculine instead of saying straight. I'm just saying really? Straight acting?

Smacked in the face with a Bible again.....

So I was walking the lake this past weekend. It was with someone that I just met and we walked the lake together. Its always a good workout to walk the whole lake. Well as we were rounding the bend we come up on that Church. If you know Lake Merritt you know that Catholic church right there on the corner. Well he started talking about how he was Catholic and how he wished that he was molested by some of the priests. He opened the door so I went inside. I have said this before and will always let you know if you ask me. I'm not into Organized Religion at all. Its down right evil and full of hate and brainwashing. So here I am talking to one of the mindless brainwashed sheep. Where is that stretch limo when you need it? He told me that he is into it and how he always wanted the priests. I told him that its dead wrong for the Catholic church to keep those child molesters around. To keep molesting the boys and girls of that faith. I told him like all Organized Religion other than Buddhist is evil. I have to give it to the Buddhist they are fundamental in their teachings and its all about becoming a better person and growing. I don't understand how the Catholic church can take someone that is a child molester and simply move him to another church. The priests have free reign to molest who they want to molest. They can be against gay rights and marriage but. They will let the kids be abused and fucked for the rest of their lives. I use to work with some Mormon's, Jehovah's Witnesses and of course Christians. They are the most dangerous people around. They will turn on you in a minute and shove their beliefs down any and everyone's throats. He told me that his sister is a Cloistered Nun and only comes out three times a year. Of course if you know me you know I'm going to talk some shit. I asked him if his sister got some dick before she closed her pussy for God. I told him I hope she arched her back and grabbed her big toes for some man. He was too rigid and could not take it. I told him that we are all human and we all get horny. Priests and Nuns also get horny as well. I said if the Nuns don't have dildo's they use cucumbers for sure. I told him how do you think you got here? There is nothing wrong with being sexual. Of course it doesn't fall under the rules and regulations of the Church. I don't want to see a Watch Tower or Book or Mormon at all. I told him you don't have to go to Church to be close to God. You can't pay your way into heaven. So here I am on a nice fucking day dealing with this bullshit again. Its never ending and it will always come up. The three things we are not suppose to talk about are... Sex... Religion.. and Politics. Oh wait one more Race is also part of the mix I digress. I use to work with a bunch of Mormon's and Jehovah's Witness and I was always tested with them. Religion is not allowed in the work place. Well the Jehovah's Witness bitch was bringing her bibles and hymn books to work. She was sitting around listening to the other employee's talking and she would run to the station manager. Tell him that she is offended by what we were talking about. Mind you she is not even part of the conversation at all. She is just there listening to what we are talking about. Adults having an adult conversations. We soon were being audited on your speaking and we were censored from then on. Well I was not having any of this. I went to the manger and told him its against the law to have religious books and things at the work place.  In the end she ended up being fired for being a bitch to someone. Its karma that she got what she deserved. The bottom line is if you can't think for yourself. Always having to run to the bible and read that goatish rubbish that no one can really understand. You are a weak minded person.

The Power of the Box

Well Its happened to me before being in a crowded store. Everyone has a number and its taking forever for the salesperson to help one person. Then in walks some Stripper or Hooker and the salesperson will stop what he is doing. Walk over to her and act like the whole store is empty. Treating her like she is some type of superstar. Yes maybe when she is spread eagle in the back of someone's car. Or swinging from some pole in a club. Of course there are regular women in the store as well but... They don't have their tits out and hanging down with some painted on pants. So they are invisible to the salesperson. Everyone is pissed off that she is getting the princess treatment. Straight men have a habit of doing that all the time. This instance I was in a sprint store it was many years ago. I ended up writing a letter to Sprint. I ended up getting a free phone, charger and case for free. Well Deja fucking Vu all over again it has just happened again. Into the store walks a lady of the night, a street walker, hussy, jezebel whatever you want to call her. We all are waiting in line to be helped and Jethro sees her and we all become invisible to him. She has on a transparent bra and pon pon shorts. I could smell her yeast infection from where I was standing. and to top it off she had on red pumps and red lipstick. He was all over her like flies on shit and she was working him. bending over a lot and putting her fingers in her mouth. He was all red and flustered trying to help her and looking hard at her. One of the women in line was talking shit about the lady of the night. She heard her and was ready to fight. She is gangsta and from the looks of her she knows how to handle herself. She told the woman that all she had to do was look at her husband. Then he would be all over her.. She said that she had a very tight piece and knew how to use it. That was about it for me I could not take it anymore and had to leave. I will be writing another letter about the bad customer service. Some women are smart and know the power of the pussy and how to use it. Most women just give it away like its nothing at all. It can make a straight man cry.. If a gay man is forced to see it it can make him cry as well. A straight man will do anything for a slice of heaven. Women know the power of your box and how to use it. To the salesmen and such please do your damn jobs and stop acting pussy whipped. Over some old used up street pussy no less..

Perceptions

People always seem to get them confused. What you see and what you want to see are two different things. When you can get to the point where you can see things for what they truly are. Then you are half way to where you need to be. Some people are just meant for you to see them. It could be a five minute conversation with them. It could be you start dating them. It could be you end up in a relationship with them. They could end up being your husband or wife. When I meet someone new I'm not expecting anything from them. People act fake and shady and when someone is actually nice to them. They think you want them or something from them. A hello from me is simply a hello. I don't have a hidden agenda at all. In work situations it can get really shady with co-workers. They ask you where you got that bag. Or how you can afford that car. A lot of black folk have to deal with these issues on a daily basis. That LV bag can't be real how can you afford that?. The same damn way anyone else does I bought it with my money. Its also the same with Gays as well. How do you feel when you are treated like the spokesperson. For your race or sex or being gay? They act like you know everything there is to know about it. These young kids today are out of control. Damn do I sound old? I'm just saying that just because you listen to Hip Hop music. That doesn't give you the right to be going around using the N word. I had to go off on some ghetto Asian girls not too long ago. They were using the N word like it was going out of style. I had to put them in check. I told them they should not be using that word ever.. I said EVER... They said that they had black friends so they were allowed to use it. I said any sane black person would put you in check. I don't care how many blacks you know or grew up around or went to school with. I asked the girls if they even knew the meaning of the word they were using. They said yes they knew what it meant. One of them started saying it as if she was reading it from the dictionary. I had to stop her and let her know. She was dead wrong and I told them what the real meaning of that word is. They thought because they listen to some Hip Hop they could be down. I don't have a problem if you want to listen to that garbage. Most of it is garbage by the way. I then told them that the word that they were using is a slave word. Its meant to degrade us and make us think about how millions have died on the boat rides over here. How many died here in the US. That America the real history of it was that it was built on the backs of slaves. Four hundred years of slavery and still we are treated badly. We may have a black man as President but Racism is still alive and kicking. When I finished reading those ignorant ghetto Asian girls they were apologizing at first then they were back at it again. I told them I'm not worried about it. I said if Karma doesn't get you first. Some black person will kick your asses. You know that is so wrong for you to use that word. Not only them but all these young kids that are out of control. Yelling and talking all loud and using the N word.. Its very popular for them to do it but.. Be warned Karma is gonna bite you right in the middle of that ass. Ignorant asses will always be ignorant asses and have more ignorant asses.. Isn't there a shot for that?

Segregation in the Gay Community

This is so dumb to me since we are all in the same boat. You can go to any town or city and see all the different clubs. They are sorted by race and its sad because we are all in it together. Here in San Francisco we have the Castro aka Cloneville. There was a Black bar in the Castro but the owner is racist and shut it down. It was called the Pendulum and it was for Black men and their admires. Many years ago at his other bar across the street from the Pendulum is Badlands. At that time Blacks were being asked for two and three forms of ID to get into the Bar. A boycott begin and the owner was on a slippery cliff. He lied and said he wasn't racist and that he would re-open the Pendulum. Well as we all know the new bar is called Toad Hall. The city was going to shut him down but he paid them off and got out of it. Karma will still bite him in the middle of his ass. As I was saying if you go to let's say West Hollywood. There are Latin clubs, Asian Clubs and of course the main clubs. Even here in the city we have everything but Black going on. The closest we get is R&B night at 440's. I'm not sure if they still do Blackout in the city. The bars in the Eastbay I haven't really explored much yet. You can open any gay publication and see its segregated by race. Latin night this, Asian night that mostly unless its in a place like Atlanta. You won't see many black clubs. Of course they are around but very few. America still has a lot of guilt and on going racism going on. Its hard on black man these days. Most black men will only date other black men. I'm open to everything and that is also hard. People don't even pay attention to what they are saying. When you block out a whole race that is racist. Here in the bay area Asians are the flavor of choice. Whites and Latin's are also popular.. Blacks on the other hand are the bottom of the barrel. We are a sexual fantasy or fetish. We are good enough for Mandingo time but not good enough for a relationship. Escalator bitches are always hunting and I avoid them. We all should be able to look at each other and see the person. Not the color of their skin that's not right. Very few are like me when it comes to men. I like everything doesn't matter the color of skin to me. I like all kinds of beauty and all kinds of men. We all forget we are still fighting for our rights in the Country. We are second class citizens here. We have to fight for basic rights that we should already have. We are not even united in the gay community and we need to be. Saying that you're sorry for not liking Asians or Blacks is racist. Its an excuse for you to be racist and not give a fuck. We all bleed red and we all sleep eat and shit. Get over this petty racism and lets unite and fight...

Excuses?

People make excuses up about how they act. Like Tracy Morgan saying his father died of Aids and his brother is special needs. That's not an excuse to be tasteless and hateful. People often say oh I'm sorry I was younger when I did that. Unless your a three year old its no excuse. You can be in Elementary, Junior High or High School. We all know right from wrong and we know when we are doing wrong. People also try to use their handicap as a excuse as well. You may be handicapped in some way but you're still a person like the rest of us. I treat everyone fairly until you give me a reason not to. How about this one' I was drunk" yeah right. You just happened to be drunk and was walking down the street. Then you fell on your sister's husand's dick. We know what the hell we are doing when we do it. Own up to the shit you do and be a bold bitch. I can admit when I'm wrong and I apologize for it. How about this one" I'm set in my old ways" Hell to the no we all can change if we are open to it. That's just another lame excuse to get out of bending with the wind. Here is a classic" I had a great time on the date" yeah right if people were honest and told the truth. It would save us a lot of time wondering if the date was really that nice or just an excuse. One of the big ones when you look for a job and they hire someone else is" We thank you for applying for the job. We found someone else better suited for the job. They didn't want you in the first place and could not just come out and say it. You walk by that place a week or so later and BAM. The hiring sign is still up. Ain't that some shit right there. The worst ones are the ones we make to our kids. Like Santa, The Tooth Fairy, The Easter Bunny all lies to calm kids or better known as excuses to tell them lies. They have that innocent look in their eyes until they know they have been Bamboozled...

Letting Go of the Past

We all have a past good or bad its still there. Most of us had a bad childhood and some of us move on. Some hold onto the pain of the past and its poison. A few people actually had a good childhood but most didn't. Experience is a good teacher and we should learn from our mistakes. Its easy to fall into the trap of carrying that negative energy around with us. Once you can see it for what it is you can get rid of it. Yes it may be true someone in our families hurt us or did something to us shady. We don't have to like our family  at all. We are stuck with them for life. That's why I live so far away from them. I can only take so much of family drama. Once you let go of the past you can begin to grow and blossom. Breaking the circle of whatever drama it is. Growing up with an alcoholic was no fun but I'm not here to judge those who drink. We all make our own beds and we have to lay in them. Instead of bitching about what's is wrong in your lives. Go out and make things better for you. Life is what you make it and its a whole world out there do see. If someone doesn't like you its fine. My grandmother says this" No matter if you do wrong or right they will always talk about you". Its true some people worry about what others say about them. I have never been one of those people. I have always marched to the beat of my own drum. Let go of the damn past and start living life instead of just being alive.

Touching the Sky

We all want to be happy and sometimes we don't know how to do it. Some of us are happy and we just don't know it. Some people don't know what happy is. If was standing right in front of them staring them in the face. I'm ready for the road ahead whatever it may be. It would be nice to have someone in this life to share with but.. I don't want to be the one running around looking for love. Love will find me when its time for me to be found. Some people spend all their time looking for something. Everything that we need is already there inside. I would be lying if I didn't say I want to touch the sky again. Love does make you grow but so does being by yourself and growing. Love is the most powerful force on this planet. You can't touch it but you can feel it. You get burned and you feel brand new with it. You can run but you can't hide from it. Money,wealth and fame don't protect you from it. Its easier for some than it is for others to find it. Some of us give up on it because its so hard and rare to find. But then again it will always find you. Not the other way around. Despite what anyone says everyone wants love.. There is nothing quite like touching the sky...

The life of a Whore

We all know a few of them for sure. We have to listen to the stories of them going to the clinic. Getting shots in their asses and dicks. Does this stop them? You could be one reading this right now. Still they try to fuck everything that moves. Always on the hunt for the next notch on their belt. Someone that I know got four STD's in a two month period. He is a total whore and is always hunting. He lives for bookstores and Steamworks. Barebacking with strangers and using Meth. Its a deadly combination and its a bad one. He think's he has the super gene to keep from getting HIV. So he thinks he is SuperHoe. He is delusional for sure. But then again isn't something off in someone's head that puts their life at risk. Barebacking with a stranger and trusting them at their word? I said it before and I will say it again"Those who give it away have something to give away". Its sad but true. I'm shocked at how many people lie about having Herpes. The person I'm talking about lies and says he is clean with no STD's or anything else. The devil is a lie..Lightning will strike him right in the middle of his  lying ass. He will end up giving some poor guy Herpes.  Its one thing to go out and have some fun. Its another when you don't know how many people you have slept with. Another person I know is also a total whore. You know who you are and yes I'm talking about you. Its sad to see that so many men are sleeping around and not using condoms. They expect you to sleep around to and get mad if you don't. The partnered guys are the worse of all. They have partner's but instead of working on things with their man. They are out trying to fuck everything that moves. Its a turn off for me if you can't even commit to one person. Why be in a relationship if you want to fuck around? Its not fair to those of us that are single. People lie about their status. I always say honesty is the best policy. In a city that is built for the single man. Its hard on couples here if they are not committed to each other. For a whore this is paradise with so much to choose from. For those of us that have standards and morals. We have to weed through the throwbacks and crazies. If you have a friend that you go out to a club with and they are a whore. They will leave you at the club and take a trick home. That's a whore. Its happened to all of us before.

Pride

As we move into the middle of the month. Its Pride the month of June, all around the world we celebrate. But as I have said before its just not today but every day. We fight for our rights that others take for granted. We are second class citizens and we go through our fair share of hate. Ignorance is the thing that leads those who are against us. We have had it hard since our childhood's and it continues. As we fight for the right to marry who who want to marry. Those ignorant asses are trying to say we can't love. Something is wrong with us mentally. It can be cured and you know what? That's a crock of shit. The Ex Gay movement is a lie just to please those people. I can tell you now that those Ex Gay's are getting married to each other. Then they are in the dark sucking dick or eating bush. The church is the root of the evil of hate. That's the reason most of us stopped going to church. I watched Out in America last night. It was really good it made me cry and it made me laugh. I'm proud to be who I am and I celebrate every day of the year. Walk the way you walk and talk the way you talk. You were made the way you are and nothing is wrong with it. We have been here since the early dawn. We will be here until the very end. People act so shocked when they see or hear someone is gay. Climb out from under that rock and start living. We are here and we want the same damn rights that everyday people take for granted. I hear a lot of gays saying they want to be accepted. Its not about acceptance its about respect. I could care less if you like me or not. But you better damn well respect me. Don't let the fag fool you.  Let's enjoy the Month of June and Celebrate Pride.. But don't forget its Pride every day for us.

Escalator Bitches

I can't stand them when I see them. Always after black men and nothing else will do for them. You wonder what a Escalator Bitch is well I will tell you. Its someone that has never even looked a black man or ever been with one. Asian, White or Latin boys that are not normally attracted to black men. They jump on the bandwagon and start dating black men only. They go with the fad that they want some jungle fever. They are the ones at the club talking to every black man there trying to get some dick. They ride the escalator's hunting for black dick. I have heard them say that sex with a black man is better. They normally put their own race down. Its self hatred if you are not attracted to your own. I don't like when I get messages from them online. It normally will be something like" I want to take every black inch". Or how big are you? is another one. The one that is funny to me is " I wish I were closer". If you were closer you would still get a big D stamped on that forehead. I'm not easy breezy with my body and I refuse to be someone's fetish. Its one thing to date all men openly. Escalator Bitches will tell you that they only want a black husband. Nothing else will do for them. Size queens that got turned out once. Expecting every man that comes into the picture to work it. Dating only men with eight inches or more. We all know one or two of them. Escalator Bitches go through all the men in whatever town they live in. They listen to R&B and Hip Hop so they can have something in common with black men. They may even dress like a thug to fit in. Under all those clothes is just a hungry bottom greedy for black dick. Don't get me wrong its one thing to like black men. Its another to objectify us and hunt us like game. Those are the Escalator Bitches...

Friends how many of us have them?

Friend is a term that is meant for people that are close to you. Some people like to throw the word around loosely. We all learn who our friends really are when we are in our darkest hour. A true friend will be there for the good times and bad. They will hold your hand when you need it held. They will listen to you when you need to vent or talk about something serious. They will go out and tear the town down having fun. A true friend will be there in your darkest hour and will care about you. Someone that is not a friend will just ask questions to be noisy. Don't ask me what happened just to find out. True friends look out for each other and give each other words of encouragement. I have a friend that was having a hard time and lost his job. I was there for him and would have done more for him if he asked me to. Others I know have brushed off the situation and not giving it a second thought. Some people are self absorbed and selfish. All they care about is who they will fuck next. Which new boy will be their next victim. My good friend of many years got a new job finally. I'm happy for him and he deserves it. If you see people pulling away from you something is up. I'm loyal until the end but don't cross me. Sometimes we have friends that test us, push us to our limits. That's when its time to let them go. You don't need someone in your life bringing you down. I recently had to let go of someone that I thought was a friend. Its a good life lesson to me. No matter how close someone gets to you.  If they don't act right its time for you to stamp that big D on their forehead and keep it moving. The word of a friend is something that you should trust and not have to second guess. Once that trust is gone and they are taking you for granted. The curtains are closed and the show is now over. When friends have good things happening in their lives. I'm truly happy for them and not a jealous type of person. We are all on our on time and things happen when they are suppose to happen. As I have said before some people don't grow. They stay the same as when you first met them doing the same things. Same shit different day they are just alive and not living life to the fullest..

True Beauty

True Beauty comes from the inside and it shines bright. The outside beauty is just an extension of the inside. Shallow people like someone for their looks and not what is inside of the person. Looks fade and all that you are left with is what is inside. Don't get me wrong I prefer a nice looking man. I'm just not a shallow person looking at someone just for their looks. We all know someone that is shallow. It could be you who is reading my blog now that is the one. I have a few friends that will remain nameless. They are not so innocent but still they are who they are. I accept people for who they are and how they treat people. If the insides don't match the outside then that is bad. I call people like that damaged goods. The package is pretty but the insides are rotten. If you don't keep your mind, spirit and soul right you're not balanced. We are all energy and we project who we are  to the world. Negative energy attracts negative things into people's lives. If you live your life in the best way you can. Then you are doing things right. A truly beautiful person is always growing. Some people are still stuck on stupid. I know people that are the same person. Years later no improvement at all. They are just alive. Not living life to the fullest. Something in their spirit is wrong. So they go through life and don't see the signs. Oprah said it best" Listen to the whispers in your life". Its true what she said on the Finale show. Being the best you can be and opening your spirit and soul to the positive things that can make them grow. This is what makes you beautiful. All of us have beauty within us. Some will never find it and will never look for it. To truly know who you are and be comfortable in it. Revel in the beauty that you are. Love every, every freckle, every curve, every inch of you. Let go of the past and live in the moment. When you do this you start to emit a glow. I see beauty every day and I'm amazed to see it in people that know it.

True Happiness or just Content with the way things are?

A few of us are now free of the drama of that now ended dead relationship. Of course I won't name names have to keep the innocent safe. So many are still in relationships with someone that they don't have any passion with. No sex no intimacy nothing but companionship. Basically a roommate or just a friend. I asked a friend of mine if he was truly happy and he said he was. But I don't believe him at all because he has been in that boring relationship. He knows he is not happy but he loves him. Here is an old country saying and its true" You can't live off of love" It takes more than love to make a relationship work. Another friend just got his happy back and that fire is back in his eyes. He was honest and got out of that situation. I say be honest and be free than be with someone that you love but don't belong with. Of course break ups are hard on both parties. But its better than living a lie. That's how cheating and resentment start and grow. Everything that happens in your life makes you stronger and a better person. Love is rare and hard to find. I think some people start relationships because they don't want to be alone. Most people don't know that everything that you need is already right there. Its deep inside you waiting for you to find it. To have someone in our lives would be a nice thing. But we don't need it to survive. Being free and honest is the best thing you can do for yourself. Its also the best thing you can do for those in your life. Be honest.