Almost Doesn't Count

So sadly you just came out of a relationship. It wasn't a good one to begin with was it? Did you give all that you could give? It wasn't enough was it? Do you love the person that you were with? Even if they are a total asshole? Did I almost make you love me? Almost but not quite there that's why it didn't work out. As long as you give one hundred and twenty percent to the relationship. There should be no regrets you can't make a horse drink. You can only lead them to the water. I am  free of a relationship that was not good for me in the first place. Of course was some time ago. Is the relationship over when you break up or when its gone downhill? No passion left no deep connection at all. I say its over when you start to drift apart. Things are not the same and you fight over dumb shit. That's a sign of the end of things. I can see why some people are scared of being in a relationship. You can get hurt badly and it could take you years to recover from the pain. A broken heart is something that only time can heal. Being in love with someone that doesn't feel the same way you do. Its scary as hell and its dangerous if you happen to live with them. That is a true test of love when you live with someone. I think business needs to be settled first as far as the lease is concerned. That way both people are covered. I wasn't lucky in that area with my last relationship. I thought things were fine not perfect but ok. Then BAM I find out that we don't share the same feelings for each other. I find out that I'm the only one that loves the other person. Not the other way around its a hard lesson to learn but you get there. Its a true test for everyone close to you when you have a broken heart. Friends will be there if they are true friends to you. You see who is there for you when you are feeling like a piece of shit. The way that person treats when its all said and done. If you are even able to have a adult conversation with them at all. Sometimes we don't get closure at all. We have to forgive them within ourselves to let it go. After all that person was your best friend  and lover. So after the pain and hurt has gone away you should be able to be friends with them. It could take years for someone to mature or it could be never. Overall its how the person treats you from the start to the end. It should be with respect and no drama. We lose ourselves and end up having to start over again in life. Tougher skin with a chunk of your soul missing, Heart is broken and the spirit is also broken. Every day is a struggle to even smile at times but you will get your happy back. We get mad at ourselves for even thinking about that asshole we were with. But that's the love in you that is doing that. Soon it will also die and you won't be thinking of them at all. But that takes some time for that to happen. Just as long as you take back your power that person has over you. Then you will truly be free of them. Free to live and explore live and maybe just maybe. Meet someone that is real